me in a nutshell
It’s been awesome becoming a mom, but there’s also so many things they don’t tell you about becoming a mom. I know that sounds silly, but they prepare you for what to expect during pregnancy ( being tired, gaining weight, cravings, ect.), but what they never talk about is after the birth all the decisions, body changes, mood changes.
First off I was one of those people that looked up everything there is to know about pregnancy and thank goodness I never really had any of the pregnancy symptoms most people have. I wasn’t emotional, I never had weird cravings, and I never threw up, so it was a pretty chill pregnancy and that’s what I expected postpartum life to be like. Let’s just say I was wrong. I’m emotional and frustrated and not because it’s been hard adjusting to a baby, but because something so natural like breastfeeding is so fucking difficult. I’ve had issued from day one, him not latching correctly, bleeding nipples, and now I have an over active let down and over supply of milk. So now I’m drowning Grayson in milk and it’s a struggle to get him to feed sometimes. It’s so frustrating to see him struggle and there’s nothing I can do about it, but I will not give up! I want him to be exclusively breastfeed for at least 6months, hopefully a year, but I see why people get frustrated and give up.
Some say I’ve became somewhat of a hippie or finally embraced it, but I’ve been switching from commercial ways to more natural ways to things such as homemade diaper rash cream. Anyways, one thing that seems to bother me is everyone asks, since he’s a boy, did you circumcise him? The answer is no, we did not decide to circumcise him and when I tell people that we get some nasty, unaccepted responses like why would you do that to your son, why didn’t you do that, it looks weird blah blah. If you were to ask me a few months ago if I was going to I would have said hands down yes, but then I started reading more about it and finding out we are the only country that regularly does it anymore, the medical reasons it was done in the past have been mostly disproved, it’s not recommended by the American Academy of Pediatrics for routine care, and mostly done for cosmetic reasons, So we decided against it and if he wants to have it done when he’s older then that’s fine. With that being said your not a bad parent for circumcising or not circumcising your child, but everyone is making me feel like I made a terrible choice and a bad mother for choosing it. There’s so many if you don’t do this as a parent your a bad parent or this way is better than another. Either way if you love your child and take care of them that should be enough. No more of this judging. No wonder why everyone is overwhelmed the first few months!
It’s been a good solid month or two where I haven’t been on Tumblr, not because I didn’t want to, but i’ve been so busy preparing for Grayson to arrive! Now that he is here and I have some time, hopefully I can catch up a little bit.